Change from Teachers' Perspectives: A Model of Personal Change Nancy T. Davis Florida State University In recent years the nature of educational research has changed dramatically. Not so long ago, research on teaching and learning was a relatively abstracted experience with the access to classrooms focused on responses to paper and pencil instruments (Tobin, 1990). However, as ethnography has gained a foothold in educational research, studies have become more intense as researchers have begun to probe deeper, to find meaning from the viewpoints of the participants in the educational process. More recently the practice of teachers accepting the role of researchers in their own classroom focusing own their own beliefs about teaching has become more frequent. This paper is about some of those teachers, their research and their resulting change process. Categories of Educational Research Educational research can be delineated into categories based on the purposes and methodologies of the research. One such categorization system is base on Habermas's (1974) theory of knowledge which he calls "knowledge-constitutive interests." According to Habermas the knowledge that humans produce is determined in part by the interest which motivates them. Habermas suggests three categories of interests which strongly influence the type of knowledge acquired; technical, practical, and emancipatory. Rationality and knowledge is defined differently within each of these interests, thus, the processes of legitimate research are also different. By examining these interests and selecting the one which most closely fits with the goals of the research, individuals are able to determine if their methods are best serving their intentions (Ewert, 1991). Technical interests are based on an instrumental rationality and have as a goal control. Educational research based on technical interests seeks to discover cause and effect relationships in teaching and learning in order to suggest the most efficient manner in which to design instruction. Teaching is viewed as a set of skills which can be mastered by the prospective teacher. The process-product research based on student achievement scores which dominated the 70's and 80's reflects technical interests. Practical interests have a more subjective perspective and have as a goal developing understanding. Social interaction and moral decision-making become the focus. Educational research is interpretive, focussing on the individual meanings persons assign to events. Developing understanding of myths, customs, and taboos (Tobin, 1991) of particular school cultures is of primary importance for research. Much ethnographic research is based in this category of educational research, the aim of which is enlightenment. While practical interests have as a goal enlightenment, that is not enough if reformation is the ultimate goal of research. Emancipatory interests contain an action component and are based in critical theory. Critical theory. . .is identified by its emphasis on emancipation through enlightenment. Enlightenment comes through a process of self-reflection. Self reflection ideally reveals distorted self-knowledge and institutional domination that prevent undistorted knowledge and the achievement of true interest. Emancipation comes through the awareness of hidden coercion and taking of freeing action.[italics added] (Ewert, 1991, p. 355) The aim of education is for the learner to develop autonomy. This is problematic for the emancipatory educator and researcher and includes many ethical dimensions (Tobin, 1990). Continued analysis of the relationship between the outside researcher and the participant must be conducted. Educational research is critical, focusing on evaluative alternative perspectives and has change as a goal. The change is not imposed from outside of the context of the individual or institution but rather is from within those who are changing. A critical educational science. . . has a view of educational reform that is participatory and collaborative; it envisages a form of educational research which is conducted by those involved in education themselves. It takes a view of educational research as critical analysis directed at transformation of educational practices, the educational understandings and educational values of those involved in the process, and the social and institutional structures which provide frameworks for their action. In this sense, a critical educational science is not research on or about education, it is research in and for education. [emphasis in the original] (Carr & Kemmis, 1986, p. 156) Those, then, who are involved in education should be the ones who are doing the research. A question that immediately comes to mind is "What is the role of the outside researcher?" Can an educational researcher outside of the school play a role in educational research that is emancipatory? Researchers who are not part of the classroom have a delicate role based on the relationship established between teachers and themselves. For educational researchers who remain outside the educational contexts being studied, this implies new relationships between researchers and practitioners: collaborative relationships in which the 'outsider' becomes a 'critical friend' helping 'insiders' to act more wisely, prudently and critically in the process of transforming education. (Carr & Kemmis, 1986, p. 161) Educational researchers who assume this role must always be aware of the ethical implications of such a role. They must always be cognizant that they are not participants within the institution of change, and the practitioner's are the ones taking the risks. Outside researchers must constantly be examining their own motivation in the guidance provided. This study is based on emancipatory interests and an epistemology of constructivism. Therefore, it involves the teachers themselves as researchers. My role was to expose the teacher-researchers to ways of viewing the educative process and to suggest to practitioners ways of looking into their own backgrounds which allows them to examine influences which shaped their beliefs about education. Therefore, the teachers wrote critical autobiographies which traced their experiences in education and explored the changes that were made in their thinking and actions. These autobiographies continue to provide these teachers with a foundation first to reflect, then to evaluate their personal change processes. Setting and Participants The three teachers involved in this study were each enrolled in a graduate program. The individuals were selected because they were pursuing degrees beyond the masters and they volunteered to participate with me in the research and presentation of the research. The individuals are from different backgrounds and are at differing points in their graduate work. Because autobiographies are personal in nature the level of trust established between the professor and the students affected their writings. Therefore a brief description of the participants and his or her relationship with the professor at the time they wrote their autobiographies is listed below: Les was a community college mathematics instructor who was enrolled in his first course in his doctoral program in mathematics education. Les held a masters degree in mathematics. Prior to the course he had not met me. Sandy was a high school biology teacher enrolled in the science education doctoral program. She had taken one course with me the previous semester. Maggie was a high school chemistry teacher enrolled in the science education specialist degree. Maggie and I shared a collaborative relationship and she had taken numerous courses with me previously. Maggie was planning to write a thesis using her autobiography as a foundation. Methodology The data for this study was taken from three autobiographies the teachers shared with me. Document analysis utilized category coding techniques (Miles & Huberman, 1984). Data were read and initial categories formulated. Further examination of the data utilized color coding techniques to allowed categorization as the data remained within the contexts in which it was written. Further examination of the data was conducted to check for consistency. The model which arose from the analysis was shared with the participants to verify and elaborate findings. Model of Personal Change Analysis across the teachers' autobiographies allowed the development of a model of change to be derived from the data. This model includes four requisites and is embedded in reflection. The four requisites: disturbance, alternatives, confidence, and action do not occur in a linear step-like fashion but interact through a reflective process. The model will be supported with quotes from the teachers' autobiographies. Disturbances. Each of the teachers felt some sort of dissatisfaction with their current teaching practices or situations. The level of disturbance varied with the individual and the context. Disturbances occurred as the teachers reflected on their students; I have noticed students memorizing rules; when rules are misapplied, many students have difficulty performing even a simple subtraction of the positive numbers that they learned in elementary school. I have watched as students, who were disabled through fear of mathematics or bored with problems abstract to them, became unable to measure the magnitude of a problem and arrived at answers such as 100 miles per hour as the speed of a swimmer. I have seen students failing the same mathematics course several times when I knew the time spent studying had been adequate. (Les, p.1) on the curriculum; I began to believe that sophisticated chemistry concepts can be more easily discussed and understood if the experience is generated using materials common to a person's environment. (Maggie, p. 11) on their images of themselves teaching; I still became funked [sic] of this acceptable routine I was settling into. Was I going to end up like Mrs. Smith or Mr. Jones who did the same thing and said the same thing day in and day out for 30 years and then retire and collect social security and a small pension from the teachers' retirement association? (Sandy, pp. 5-6) and with the political system of schools; Unfortunately my experiences on the administrative level have led me to realize the amount of politics involved. It has become apparent to me that many times program assignments and positions are awarded for personal reasons. I have become disillusioned and unwilling to play by those rules at this time. (Maggie, p. 12) The level of disturbance also varied from minor irritations (Is this all there is?) to severe emotional crises (decisions to leave the teaching profession). Irrespective of the level of disturbance, in order for change to occur the teacher must be dissatisfied with current situations. Many teachers who return for advanced degrees are seeking to resolve their own personal disturbances. Alternatives. As teachers sought to resolve conflict which arises from disturbances they needed to have alternatives that fit with their teaching experiences and beliefs. Through my science education classes at FSU I became aware of the constructivist epistemology. I can recall being immediately excited by the ideas that were being suggested, however, it was so different from any other education class I had been a part of in the past, so I was confused as to whether I understood. The more I heard, the more fascinated I became. Here was a PhD with science credentials claiming that there is no one right answer. A science educator suggesting that perhaps problem after problem in chemistry was not the way to teach the mole to mole ratio. Even suggesting that perhaps high school students don't need to know the mole to mole ratio! I distinctly remember thinking these people are talking about a revolution in education. They are not talking about changing a curricular activity but changing our understanding of teaching and learning, raising our consciousness level. After 5 years of teaching I was thrilled to hear people concerning themselves with real teaching and learning the way I experienced it everyday, not the way I perceived schools wanted me to teach. (Maggie, p. 17) Alternatives can arise from many sources including collaboration with colleagues, readings, workshops, or graduate study. For these teachers considering an epistemology radically different from the predominant one in their schooling experiences provided a viable alternative and possible solution to the disturbances in their thinking. Because constructivism is radically different from their previous ways of making sense it was important for the alternatives to be connected closely to their personal experiences. I have found this approach to be very "real." Their beliefs touched my soul. They recognized what I felt when I began teaching chemistry. (Maggie, p. 14) By using constructivism as a referent the teachers were able to reframe the questions they asked themselves about teaching and learning. Why do you do what you do everyday in your classroom? How do you think your students learn? How do you learn? How would you respond as a learner in your classroom? It gave me a headache. (Sandy, p. 7) As I embrace new ideas about learning, assessment of student progress poses special problems. I know that assessment should not be merely the averaging of individual, hour long, paper-and-pencil tests. Allowing students considerable choice in the method of assessment--what I have heard called emancipated student assessment--holds special appeal for me. (Les, p. 12) Constructivism provided a new way of viewing teaching and learning and allowed the teachers to formulate possible solutions to the disturbances they had. Confidence. Through the reformation of questions and the consideration of alternative explanations the teachers began to realize that they were in control of the way they conceptualized teaching and learning. They had the power to change by re- conceptualizing their thinking, thus they developed the confidence necessary for change. Part of this process of developing confidence was their acceptance of personal responsibility for the disturbances they had created in their minds. They realized that their actions made a difference and they were personally in control of their choices. The problem was not a lack of materials or resources. The problem was me! I had no voice. I just did what I was supposed to do and did not really think anything. (Sandy, p. 6) I said that I wanted to study mathematics education in an effort to learn more about the teaching and learning of mathematics. I now believe that personal change is necessary. My current practice is firmly rooted by 20 years as a student experiencing positivist teaching and 12 years teaching experience modeling this practice. But the practices I now employ in educational activities seem in some ways inadequate for their purposes. (Les, p. 8) As they accepted responsibility they were able to make changes and take risks. They also accepted responsibility for possible mistakes but realized they were in control. The future holds many changes for myself and hopefully some of my colleagues, but none of these changes will come about unless I am willing to take some risks. Along with these risks will come the possibility of failure. The constraints that I have encountered are personal, but that does not make them any easier to deal with. Time, state mandates, administrative decisions, and school board policies are still looking over my shoulder. The changes I make in these areas will be open to public scrutiny, but if they can be justified and I believe in what I am doing, then I am willing to go against resistance. (Sandy, p. 9) These then are emancipated teachers, who realize that change is within their own power to affect. Thus they are further able to assess their own beliefs and practices as they continue their personal development. Action. What changes do these teachers perceive they have made? Where do these individuals believe they need to be headed? Examples of the changes these teachers made included overt behavior changes such as changing assessment techniques, classroom organization, nature of homework assignments, and discipline strategies. However, a more abiding change was realized as the teachers perceived changes in the way they view mathematics and science and the learning of those disciplines. Les reveals his change in the nature of mathematics and how mathematical knowledge is acquired: My idea of teaching and students' learning of mathematics was simple. Teaching mathematics consisted of merely exposing concepts to learners who take appropriate notes and reinforce through practice what they have observed. If students would attend to my demonstrations of concepts and the subsequent examples illustrating the concepts, mastery would come with practice. If students did not perform well, they were just not practicing enough. Context and human subjectivity had no place here; this was factual knowledge, and it was my job to transmit this knowledge. . . . I have now come to believe that the mathematical knowledge learners accumulate is dependent on the learners' experiences and the individual ways in which they organize information. Learning is contextual and takes place as learners attempt to construct meaning from a new experience from new information. Each individual constructs a version of what he or she experiences, based on existing knowledge and experience. Versions will differ among individuals. (Les, pp. 9-10) Through the awareness made possible by self reflection these teachers were able to take freeing actions in their own teaching. They were able to identify areas of personal weaknesses and set their own course of action. Each one expressed the slowness of change and the ongoing nature of their own learning process. Sandy summarized her autobiography by stating: Learning how to critically analyze my own knowledge and teaching the students how to reflect on their own learning calls for more responsibility from both parties. There will be uncertainty, risk-taking, accommodations, and adaptations before new equilibriums can be met. So far it has been very exciting and many times a humbling experience. (Sandy, p. 9) Discussion The purpose of education from an emancipatory perspective is for the learner to develop critical thinking and autonomy. This requires the learner to be able to evaluate his or her learning and to determine the direction of future learning. It is impossible for a teacher to emancipate learners because only learners can emancipate themselves. What a teacher can do is to provide opportunities for learners to develop confidence in their own ideas. Having the teachers with whom I work write critical autobiographies was my attempt to help them develop that confidence. The autobiography was used as a tool to assist teachers in reflecting on their previous experiences in teaching and learning. The written product allows them to analyze their own backgrounds. Through this analysis teachers were able to illuminate factors within their cultures which contributed to the formation of their beliefs. For example, both Maggie and Sandy wrote about the influence of the "work ethic" on their beliefs about teaching and learning. By identifying cultural influences on their beliefs individuals are able to realize that these beliefs are not reality to everyone. They can develop understanding of others realities which may not include their own cultural norms. They can also examine the sources of these norms and determine implications these beliefs may have within the culture. Using the work ethic as an example, they can now ask who does this cultural norm benefit? Where does the control behind such a norm lie? Through this examination teachers can critically analysis components of their teaching culture which may previously been hidden to them. They are then able to determine if they want to retain that norm for themselves. They gain control. Belenky, Clinchy, Goldberger and Tarule (1986) reported similar results with women from their study: During the process of self-examination, women feel a heightened consciousness and sense of choice about "how I want to think" and "how I want to be." They develop a narrative sense of self--past and future. They do not want to dismiss former ways of knowing so much as they want to stay alert to the fact that different perspectives and different points in time produce different answers. (p. 136) They may elect to change or they may not, it a self-developed choice. They are no longer just followers, they are shapers as they consciously determine their goals and actively shape the learning situations they desire. The questions teachers ask about teaching and learning change as they become aware of their own power. They are no longer passive in their acceptance of authoritarian pronouncements about what is right for their students. This does not mean they dismiss cultural norms, but rather they accept responsibility for evaluating the value of that norm. As Belenky et al. (1986) found: When [individuals] accept the responsibility for evaluating and continually re-evaluating their assumptions about knowledge, the attention and respect they might once have awarded to the expert is transformed. They appreciate expertise but back away from designating anyone an "expert' without qualifying themselves. And evaluation of experts is not only possible but is an important responsibility that they assume. (p. 139) They realize that the value of their own ideas and thoughts, which allows them to develop the confidence they need to be able to take the freeing actions of an emancipated individual. Conclusions The model of change purposed here is not the only model of change. Within my own research several models of change have been developed from differing data sources. Davis, 1989a; Davis, 1989b; Shaw, Davis, McCarty, 1991; Sidani-Tabbaa & Davis, 1991). This is the first model founded firmly within emancipatory interests. The power of individuals examining their own histories has been revealed through my interaction with these teachers. As educators learn more about the change process they may assist others in their own critical analysis by examining the patterns which arise across autobiographies. The development of a model of personal change allows comparison to other models. Through comparison, outside researchers can evaluate their actions in being a 'critical friend' to teachers in the process of change. An ultimate result of working with individuals as they write autobiographies is the impact those biographies have had on me. As I have read these teachers' insights into the effect their experiences and culture has had on them, I learn about myself. Their change has facilitated my change. This is only the beginning. References Belenky, M. 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